Home Sweet Home.

These steps.

I have the option to walk up these step and through the door a changed person, or I can walk through the door and step right back into the world I left 5 days ago.

The choice is mine.

One of my favorite sayings:

“We all have choices. Choose you.”

-Laura Preston

Will I choose me? Will I implement the things I learned. The things I know to be true? The changes I want to make?

( Thoughts on the flight home )

Change is hard. I believe there are different types of changes. LIC-Life Inflicted Changes, changes that happen to us with no control, or maybe changes we choose that we have to battle through because they are permanent/semi-permanent. Changes that cause something to be structurally altered in our life, that once the choice is made…there is no easy-going back. I think of my weight loss surgery as one of those, it  was a choice I made almost 14 years ago that I live with every day. Or maybe a move to a new city, something we chose to do that would be tough to undo.

Then there are CC- Chosen Changes. These are every day in the moment choices that we make all day long. What time are we going to get up, what are we going to wear, what are we going to eat, what am I going to do right now, am I going to the gym, what time am I going to bed….and the list goes on. These are harder changes to implement because there are no solid consequences if we don’t do it. You can always do it tomorrow, or maybe….I don’t feel like it so I am not doing it at all. Yet these are the choices that shape our lives, minute by minute and hour by hour. These are the changes that can create incredible life change and create new habits.

These are the hardest changes to make, in my opinion.

Tonight I will walk through the door after an inspiring and to be honest, overwhelming trip to California. I spent a weekend surrounded by motivated and inspired people. People that are game changers. People that are learning and growing. Pushing to raise the bar in their lives. People that want do incredible creative work, that are invested in themselves and believe that they can and will make a difference in the world. I am so grateful to have this experience again this year, it always feels like my New Year kick off… my yearly fresh start.

Now the hard part. What will I implement? What will I change? Where do I start?

So many overwhelming thoughts, feelings and questions are running through my head on this flight. At first I settled into my seat and sat back and closed my eyes. Thinking I was going to choose to take a nice two-hour nap on the way to Denver. I grabbed a window seat and snuggled in. However, I closed my eyes and my mind started to race. Replaying the talks and themes from the weekend. Thinking about the life I was flying back to, and what I want to implement. So here I am….pulling out the laptop and writing.

One of my intentions is to come back to this blog. Starting putting put my thoughts and words down on “paper.” To share in a written form versus a talking video format. To take the time to run the thoughts through my head and capture them versus just ramble them. Put them in a place where I can come back and examine them, review them, see if they hold true. I guess it will be a form of accountability of some sort. I can do it for me, but also have the ability to share with others to see if they can relate. Maybe find others that share the ideas or want to share the journey.

So if you are reading this, if you are one of the people who have subscribed to this blog…HELLO!. You will probably find me in your inbox right now and wonder WHO IS THIS? Lol. I have to admit, I was surprised to see the number of subscribers here, especially when it has laid doormat over a year. Maybe you will be someone who will read this because I share it on my social media channels and you will think: She has a blog? Lol

Regardless….welcome back, or better yet, WELCOME!  to this space I created long ago. I have a lot of house cleaning to do in here so bear with me. I am going to get out the cleaning supplies, get things updated and polish things up for you. I want to be a hostess with the mostest.

What should you not expect here?

Perfection. A perfect role model. Perfect grammar. If those are things that are important to you, this is so not your page. I am going to come in here and ramble away…and I promise it will be full of grammatical issues and I am ok with that, and I hope you are too.

What can you expect from me?

Good intentions. Honest conversations. Me. The real authentic Laura. Someone who is working on living their best life. Someone who has set a lot of goals for 2019.

And of course…….always too much Lola.

Speaking of Lola, I know she is on the other side of that door, and right now there is nothing I want more than to snuggle up with my girl and be HOME.

So goodnight friends…..and welcome back to

Laura Land.

                                                        xoxo,

Laura

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